đ§ Real Talk Breakdown: Whatâs Really Going On When They Say Youâre âUnderperformingâ
đ 1. âUnderperformanceâ is Often a Weaponized Narrative, Not a Fact
When your competence threatens comfort, the system turns on you.
What it looks like on the surface:
âWeâve noticed youâre not meeting expectations.â
Whatâs happening under the surface:
âYou challenged something or someone we didnât want challengedâand now weâre shifting the story to make you the problem.â
Letâs call it what it is:
- You asked questions no one else had the guts to ask.
- You noticed patterns others have learned to ignore.
- You didnât smile enough.
- You were too Black, too loud, too quiet, too ambitious, too directâtoo much.
- Your very presence became âdifficult to manage.â
This isnât about performance. Itâs about proximity to power and whether youâre controllable.
đ§ Psych Insight: When you donât fit the unwritten rules of âbelonging,â your work will be scrutinized through a distorted lens. Even if your outputs are strong, your presence itself becomes a threat to the status quo.
𧨠2. âFeedbackâ is Often a Soft Setup for the Fall
Youâre told:
âWe just want to help you grow.â
What theyâre doing:
Creating a paper trail to terminate you.
Hereâs the trap:
- The feedback is intentionally vague.
- Youâre told to improve⌠but the goalposts keep moving.
- You improve one area, they highlight another.
- They “forget” to give you the support or resources they promised.
- They isolate you, limit your visibility, then say you’re “not collaborating enough.”
đ§ Behavioral Analysis: Itâs called institutional gaslighting. The system makes you doubt yourself while it builds a case against you. Itâs psychological erosion disguised as âdevelopment.â
đĄď¸ 3. Documentation is Not Just ProtectionâItâs Protest
When you start documenting, youâre doing more than covering your ass. Youâre refusing to be erased.
- Every email is a receipt.
- Every scope change is a timestamp.
- Every 1:1 summary is a counter-narrative.
- Every âdid I miss anything?â is a boundary drawn in ink.
Youâre saying:
âI know what youâre trying to do.
I see it.
And I refuse to be silently sacrificed.â
đ§ Cultural Truth: For many of usâespecially Black professionalsâwe donât just carry the work. We carry the burden of justifying our right to do it. Thatâs why we document. Not to complainâbut to survive.
đ 4. You Are Not the ProblemâBut You Might Be the Disruption
If youâve been labeled an underperformer, ask yourself:
- Have I challenged power?
- Have I refused to play the politics game?
- Have I disrupted a culture of mediocrity, dysfunction, or silence?
If the answer is yes, then youâre not failing. Youâre resisting.
And resistance looks like failure⌠to those trying to uphold broken systems.
đ§ Final Analysis:
The underperformer label is often a smokescreen. The real issue?
Youâre not underperforming.
Youâre under-submitting.
Youâre not falling short.
Youâre standing tall in a space that rewards those who shrink.
đ Now What?
If youâve been labeled:
â 1. Donât internalize it
The moment you believe them is the moment theyâve won.
â 2. Double down on documentation
You are building your own version of events. Thatâs your power.
â 3. Strategically protect your exit or your comeback
Sometimes you stay and reclaim the narrative.
Other times, you exit with evidence and dignity intact.
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